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| Nothing seems right anymore and i dont know who i can trust anymore and who is really my friend. and i have had so many problems with this girl this year its ridiculous. hopefully everything will get better. but right about now i'm thinking that this year just sucks.
i dont feel like explaining though ...
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| So...basically i ate a little too much last night! haha and i totally set up our christmas tree which was fun. i'm very excited for christmas this year, hopefully it will be all happy! =] or maybe it wont. haha who even knows? and i dont even write in this at all. which is a shame. -Pat | | |
| its here.. the feelilng the moments there all here!! Everything is working out adn its so wonderful. But a few months ago it didnt seem like anything like this even with her would even work. But i guess i must've done something right and its worked out..
okay so here's what happened Friday.
i woke up (of course)
Went to school (thats a given)
and then when school ended i walked over to the main campus to go meet up with Emily. So i get there and i'm sitting down on the bench by the pool and all of a sudden its like runway lights and there she is looking so beautiful =] and she was with Jenny and Swaytha and they sat down and we were talking about stuff for a bit. Then me and emily left to go for Caribou.. and of course it was raining so we walked over there holding hands and talking and stuff and then we got there and we sat down. We caught up on some stuff and just kinda acted like we usually do but Emily was being very suggestive tha tsomething was going to happen tonight and i was like okay?? and then it was seriously like senior day in caribou just flocks of old people were there and it was very disturbing.
then it was about 4:30 and my mom polls up and i realized taht we would have to go but i had to go and tell her everything .. so i cut to the chase and told her how everytime i've seen her and been with her its been amazing and i made it short and it went well because she said yes but it was very hard for me and knowing that my mom was waiting made me kinda worried so i hurried. But i guess no matter how much i might've screwed up she didn't care which is always nice to know =]
So then we get in the car and i said i'm guessing you want me to take you home?? and she said ummm no i think we should go to your house (or however she said it i really dont remember) and i was like okay? and my mom made some rediculous comment and then we drove home and we got out of the car and she's like just go inside and go downstairs and i was like okay?? so i kind of had the impression that jenny and swaytha were there and they were going to just be like oh yeah were haviing a party happy early bday or something becase i saw these streamesrs and balloons. so then i'm like okay so there being rediculous and i walk down stairs and turn on the lilghts to find that it wasnt just them .. they all came bursting out of the kitchen area and said surprise surprise and i was like what the hell is going on??
so they threw me a surprise bday party and still thought we were going to the movies but i guess that never happened.. haha
yeah to make the story short it was amazing !
i'm a bad story teller oh well.
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| deffinately a favorite time of the year!!
Woooooooooooh! then New years
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| Well.... the Waubonsie vs Neaqua game is this friday and its going to be @ North Central College i'm so excited . If you don't go then your retarded. ahhahahahhah.
Well no baby bambenos yet ... i'm waitin' and waitin' and wait'n i'll post pics!
www.geocities.com/pats_pals92 <<<<even though it needs updating!!!
MY FREAKIN favorite song right now..!!!
What Hurts The Most
Rascal Flatts
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do
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